compilation

i don't remember a lot of it but the parts i do remember were weird enough
ruususokkusu: i was in i think...maybe paris again...or some big city with a metro
ruususokkusu: and we were at the a station waiting looking out the windows and the sky was looking really creepy
ruususokkusu: like really dark
ruususokkusu: and then in one direction it was this really pale blue...like too much sun but being sorta covered up quickly by this swarm of big black clouds
ruususokkusu: and suddenly they were rushing at us really really fast
ruususokkusu: and they turned into these demon things with fire eyes and they were swooping down and at first we were like ha we must be dreaming some joke this is
ruususokkusu: but then the windows all broke as it crashed into us and we were like shit it's the end of the world for real
ruususokkusu: later tho i guess we ran away
ruususokkusu: cuz i was sitting on the couch with this boy i guess he had been with me i dunno
ruususokkusu: and he was...see i have this thing about THE boy...like an ideal...genuine...boy and there are these certain qualities and i'm not even really sure what they are...very esoteric...but this was him...in the flesh. THE BOY
ruususokkusu: and he's somewhere between like 12 and 15 years old right
ruususokkusu: but we have this like...cosmic connection
ruususokkusu: really bizarre
ruususokkusu: and suddenly i know i've gone back in time...
ruususokkusu: like...
ruususokkusu: i just all of the sudden realized that i was in the past and that when i got back to the future i would still know this boy only he would be much older...say like...40 or something
ruususokkusu: and everything was so weird
ruususokkusu: sitting with this boy on the couch...and he put his head on my shoulder...and it was almost like i was his mom
ruususokkusu: but i wasn't his mom
ruususokkusu: cuz in the future i knew i would meet him and we'd be together
ruususokkusu: it was soooo messed up
ruususokkusu: this one was really intense
ruususokkusu: freakin' end of the world and then this boy/man
ruususokkusu: it was the strangest feeling
ruususokkusu: "cosmic" is the best word i could come up with
ruususokkusu: i've been having lots of dreams lately about connecting with people really deeply

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when he was there on my shoulder
ruususokkusu: all i wanted was to keep him safe and happy and like...be his mom, take care of him
ruususokkusu: but then in the future, all i wanted was for him to take care of me
ruususokkusu: it was like the most mind-boggling thing to feel both at once
ruususokkusu: like being an embryo or something lol
nymphofwould: *laughs*
ruususokkusu: no really it's the most bizarre thing in the world
ruususokkusu: i couldn't tell if he knew or not tho
ruususokkusu: yeah
ruususokkusu: it was really cool
ruususokkusu: and then i woke up x_x
ruususokkusu: lol
ruususokkusu: my dreams have been emotion-packed lately